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Below are my newest works for novels and artwork. My art website can be found by clicking on the artwork. The link to buy my novel off of amazon can be found by clicking on the book cover.

Currently I am working on both new drawings and a new novel. The sequel to the above novel has been put on hold.

If you have any questions about my artwork or writing please feel free to contact me below.

Aug. 28th, 2010


Step up

I'm tired of not being happy with my body. I look in the mirror and I see a woman who is far too overweight and unhappy. I feel disgust when I catch a glimpse of myself in a store window. When Nika or Frankie are on the computer in the bedroom, and I sit on the bed to talk with them, I can see myself in the mirror on our closet doors. I look HORRID!

I need to change things. What I don't need is to go to extremes to get where I want to go.

I'm going to use what worked for me in the past. Cutting down on junk and working out. I'm not going to go all crazy either. In the past I've used the Body Sculpting Bible for Women and it's a great book.

I think I'm going to start with that. Just work out 3 days a week using weights and working on my abs. I'm also going to add running to it for my cardio.

Then, after a few weeks of that I'm going to start taking classes at my gym. Yes, the gym I haven't gone to in MONTHS! I'm not sure which one to take. There are a TON of them (though not all are offered at my gym). I want one that will burn calories but I can actually do. Here is a description of the classes they offer if anyone is curious.

So by that point I'll be doing strength, abs, and running 3 days a week and take a class 3 days a week.

Also I'm quitting smoking. I'm positive that one of the reasons I have no energy is because I'm replacing oxygen with carbon monoxide from the cigarettes. Yeah, not a good thing.

As for diet, I would like to be raw. But for now that's going to an extreme that I'm not sure I can do. Just going by past experience here. I am going to start off slow with my diet. I'm going to cut out junk food. I'll allow myself to have it once a month (during my period). As for everything else, well I'm going to step up the fruits and veggies a bit. Dinner will be whatever I usually make (I don't make unhealthy dinners anyway). Eventually I'll be fully vegan and maybe one day raw. But for now that's not necessary (though I do need to limit my meat intake for the sake of my intestines).

My goal is to lose approximately 40 lbs. I'm not giving myself a time table on it. More importantly than the weight is that I want to drop down to a size 10 (8 at the smallest). I'm a size 14 now. The last time I was a 10 I was around 150-160 lbs. That's 20-30 lbs away.

I'm setting mini goals with rewards. At a size 12 I'll get myself a professional massage (mmmmmm.....) at my gym. At a size 10 I'm going to go on a shopping spree (spending $100 at a thrift store should do it). If I get down to a size 8 then I'm going to sew myself 4 or 5 outfits/dresses. I really don't want to get smaller than an 8. As a 6 I was way too thin.

I really hope I can do this!

Aug. 27th, 2010


Kieriana's school

Kieriana and I get to go visit her school today. Frankie's going to be able to come for a bit too. She's going to be evaluated to determine her placement.

It's a BOCES school for children with emotional and psychological difficulties. Her tantrums and "freaking out" has caused the district to decide that she can't be placed in a "normal" kindergarten class this year. They said that this new school will be temporary.

I know the principle's wife. She's told me all about the school and from what she's said it sounds pretty good. They have 5 psychologists on staff who work with the kids on a daily basis. The classes are determined by academic skill and the emotional stability (or lack thereof) of the children. So she won't be held back academically and she won't be placed with children who have more difficulties than she does.

I'm a bit nervous. I really want to homeschool her but I feel that I just can't provide all that she needs at this time. It's a difficult decision to put her in this school. One that I've actually agonized over.

But there comes a time where you have to recognize that your ideals may not be the best for a given situation. Sometimes you have to step way outside your comfort zone.

Aug. 25th, 2010


UGH! weight issues

Sometimes I think I am afraid to be thin. Seriously. After all why else would I sabotage every effort to lose weight with junk food and laziness?

When I picture myself in my mind as how I would like to look this flubber around my belly isn't part of it. When I look in the mirror and see my puffy face it's so not the face I want to see.

I've worked out one day in the past month. During that time I've had 8 bowls of ice cream, 15 trips to McDonnald's, a butt ton of chips, enough soda to fill a kiddie pool, and more.

Yet, I want to lose weight. Yeah. Ok.

Seriously though, I need to kick myself in the butt a bit. I need to keep away from the junk (except for once in a while as a treat) and I need to start working out more. I mean I'm eating food that obviously isn't good for me. Plus I'm eating meat which just kills me anyway (the agony that comes with a big mac is more than added fat and too many calories).

I have a plan and it's a simple one.

1. Eat healthier. Smaller portions and more meals equaling around 1600 calories a day (no less than 1200 and no more than 2000). More fruits and veggies (and eating meat sparingly thanks to my messed up belly). Less junk food.

2. Work out on a regular basis. I'm the kind of person who needs to work out every day to be able to keep with it. But I know that's not reasonable starting out. Even if I just do 3 days a week then at least it's better than nothing. And I can work up to 6 days (no matter what I need at least 1 day off).

That's it. That's the secret to weight loss. Eat healthy, exercise, and be active.

So what's my problem?

Aug. 20th, 2010



My dreads are now 2 months old. :) Or thereabouts. They'll be 8 weeks old tomorrow, but the actual 2 month anniversary is on the 25th. *shrugs* Oh well, it's close enough for me. lol

I haven't done anything more than separate them for the past 2 weeks. So they're getting kind of loopy. I'm letting them do their own thing, especially after some awesome advice given to me on GUDU last time I did some maintenance.

Here are some pictures!

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I'm having fun with them. I had been keeping them up a lot (loose hair ties or scrunchies...just enough to keep it off my face and neck) but I realized that the loops are all about where the dread met the scrunchie. So I'm keeping it down as much as I can. Odd thing is the part before where my hair was tied up (closer to my head) has dreaded better than the ones where my hair is hanging out (closer to the ends). *shrugs*

Aug. 18th, 2010



We went to the thrift store to buy the kids new clothes. Orion only got a few things (he was being difficult) but Kieriana got a lot! I also got a few things. All in all we spent about $150 which can buy you TONS at a thrift store. lol

Kieriana wanted to model what she got. Orion only wanted to show off one thing. Yeah, I know the blazer he's wearing is a bit much...lol...but he really wanted it and it was $4 so I said OK. lol

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Aug. 17th, 2010


Pixie Girl update

I worked on the pixie girl drawing a bit more today. I was up on it till late last night and then worked on it today for about an hour. Let me know what you think!

EDIT: 3:30 pm

Here's an update. Instead of making another entry I decided to just post it on here. I did a lot more with her hair and ear and then moved onto her shirt. I really love how this is coming out. I also took a lot of pictures in the backyard of vines and bushes to get an idea of what to do for a background.

Aug. 16th, 2010


Pixie Girl WIP

So I started a new drawing today. Well technically I started it yesterday but only part of the outline then. Today I did a lot more to it.

She's a pixie girl. This is going to be my first piece that I made to sell. I'm really nervous because I want it to come out just perfect.

Here's what I have so far:

Aug. 15th, 2010


Getting back to the routine!

I really need to do it. I need to get my home organized and neat. I'm tired of it being messy. It's not too bad compared to some people's homes I guess. But I would like for it to be neat enough where if someone dropped by unannounced (like say my mother) then I wouldn't be embarrassed.

I made up a list of things that desperately need to be done in each room to get them organized. I'm going to work on one room a week. Once I get it organized then I'm going to start making sure it stays that way, and clean, by using flylady again.

I can do this! I know it!

Ding dong the drawing is done!

Here is the drawing I did for Annette.

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